I graduate from college in 4 weeks from today.
These last few years have been beyond difficult and I am ready to move on. Not only in the sense of my graduation, but in the sense of my mental and physical health. For some reason I really haven’t taken care of myself. I’ve gotten by but I really need to make some changes- big and small.
I realized last weekend that I really need to invest more time in myself. I was back home visiting the parents for mother’s day. I have three quarter lenght pajama pants that I wandered around in most of the time. This led to the realization that I probably haven’t shaved my legs in two months (and I was constantly wearing pajama pants?!?!). Gross. I had justified it by say 1. I ALWAYS wear pants. 2. I’m not dating anyone… so what difference does it make? Well mom- the person whose opinion means most to me in the world- decided to intervene. She sat down with me and discussed my interview to get into my major at the University of Cincinnati 4 years ago. “I have never seen you have more confidence in yourself than you had on that day.” she says to me. “You need to start regaining that confidence again.”
She was right. Not only were my legs hairy, but in the last two years of college I’ve gained 30 pounds. And I have dry skin which probably contributes to the fact that I only wear pants. What’s worse is that I haven’t really even tried to remedy any of these things. I felt like crap after thinking about it and I decided that it was necessary to go shopping. My first stop was picking up a great interview suit. I got a fabulous jacket/skirt combo for $35 (it was 50% off woo-hoo!) and white shoes to match the trim for $15 (also half off and with their sale that day they took an additional $10 off.) I felt awesome about it and I felt great in it as well.
So now what about the internal? Well I actually spent some money on myself. Nothing too intense but I bought:
+Intense moisturizing lotion (I figure it actually might work instead of just smelling nice)
+ped egg refills (I’ve had one for awhile… figured I would give it another try)
+Make-up (just the standard eyeliner/mascara but considering lately I haven’t been wearing any…)
+Razors (figured I should just start fresh)
So now what about my weight? I’m keeping a food journal. I weigh myself 3 times a week and I write down everything that goes in my mouth. That way I won’t overeat. Two summers ago I had great success with this, but I ended up eating so little that I actually blacked out during a tennis lesson. Now I know better.
I realize this isn’t going to be easy. But that’s okay. I am determined.
It’s 18 days until I turn 22. This year will be much better than the last.